The Body of Light

After my devastating astral encounter with Crowley and his Book of the Law my point of awareness had been forced across the Great Abyss and all my lower astral bodies had been destroyed. I gratefully moved into this new permanent body of light.
Being in this astral body was strange, interesting and exciting. The strange thing [...]

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Born Again!

God, I was pissed! Nothing was going right. My wife had took the kids and left, our home was in foreclosure, we were going through bankruptcy, and they were closing down our squadron! The stresses were unbearable and there was nothing I could do but endure. I could feel a tight band around my head [...]

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Moving into the Light and Crowley

Moving into the Light was incredible. It was love. It was warm and it was feminine! I loved being there and wanted it more than anything else in the world. Somehow there was a polarity shift in my soul and instead of uniting with God I wanted to unite with Goddess!
At first I could only [...]

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Unrelenting Poverty and Crossing the Great Abyss

We were so  poor that it still hurts to think about it! I was in the military and I still needed part time work on the side to make ends meet. I worked as a security guard weekends when I could and meditated, always meditated. I was getting these wonderful glimpses of truth, illuminations and [...]

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Magnum Life Stresses

Back in Minnesota it was about three months before I heard from her again and of course she was pregnant and wondering what to do. It seemed that there really was nothing to do except get married and that’s what we did.
Now there are mag trauma experiences in life that are so unsettling it takes [...]

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The Stars and the Moon

“She walked past me from behind and touched my tailbone. I felt an electric spark at her touch and then she was gone.” I woke up. This dream or a variant of it continued to haunt me for the next twenty years. Each year I would have at least one dream contact with my old [...]

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UFO’s and The Threat of Nuclear Holocaust

The eighty’s were the Reagan years and the fear of nuclear holocaust was almost palpable. Many sensitive and psychic people could sense just how close we were to global war and meditated every day for world peace. I was a college student in Germany in 1980 when Reagan got shot. It is a strange feeling to [...]

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Spiritual Masters and Sexual Vampires

 
I slowly opened my eyes and looked at the lit candle on the table in front of me. From time to time the Rosicrucian monographs had self-initiations and I had just completed one. There was an intense feeling of spiritual energy and light in the room and my eyes were drawn to the left toward [...]

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Crisis and New Beginnings

I tried to walk the faith my parents taught me. I became a Sunday School teacher shortly after I graduated from High School. I was well liked and trusted but inwardly I had my own doubts and they became strong enough that I quit teaching Sunday School. I knew what was expected of me and [...]

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Puppy Love and the Rosicrucians

I fell in love in my senior year and dated briefly. It did not last long and I thought I understood why. She was such an angel and I was such a fraud. My self esteem was almost non-existent and I knew I did not deserve someone like her. It was hard but I accepted [...]

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