Magnum Life Stresses

Back in Minnesota it was about three months before I heard from her again and of course she was pregnant and wondering what to do. It seemed that there really was nothing to do except get married and that’s what we did.

Now there are mag trauma experiences in life that are so unsettling it takes about seven years to really get over them. I can list some of them, death of a loved one, job loss, new job, moving to a new location. getting married and the birth of a child. Well, no one died but all the rest of them hit both of us hard!

Without health insurance I opted to join the Air Force so we could have needed medical care when we needed it. I was actually in basic training when my first child was born back in Kansas. I got stationed in Phoenix Arizona and believe it or not spent two entire four year enlistments there!

This did not go over very well with her family because her father was a Mennonite minister! yeah, I had landed a preacher’s daughter!

Like most military enlistees I was dirt broke and we had a hard time of it in the big city. There were a few advantages though. There was actually a Rosicrucian Lodge and for the first time I met other Rosicrucians, went to meetings and was given initiations.

The same held true for an affliliate group, the Traditional Martinist Order. I was greatly encouraged in my spiritual pursuits. A strange dynamic of married life helped as well. Somehow the energy dynamic between my wife and I forced her to be the emotional one and forced me to stay in my head. When she got mad I would retreat into my head and she would get even more mad because I would not engage with her.

I like to think that we did learn to love each other in our own ways but it was hard. We were both damaged people with issues and in a hard spot.

In all fairness she believed in me and in my potential. I had great plans and talked a good talk but never seemed to be able to get anywhere. I let her down. Then the twins came!